If you gaze for long into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you.

-Friedrich Nietzsche

Do you really think it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations in which it requires strength, strength, and courage to yield.

-Oscar Wilde

The higher we soar, the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly.

-Friedrich Nietzsche

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

-Oscar Wilde

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

-Albert Einstein

LIBRAS RULE!!! BITCHES!

-DY J

This is the very worst wickedness, that we refuse to acknowledge the passionate evil that is in us. This makes us secret and rotten.

-D.H. Lawrence

Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.

-Oscar Wilde

Distrust all in whom the impulse to punish is powerful.

-Friedrich Nietzsche

And if your friend does evil to you, say to him,  forgive you for what you did to me, but how can I forgive you for what you did to yourself??/SPAN>

-Fried Nietzsche

During a tough time in your life, I was the reason for your pain.

A year later. You must ask yourself, s it HE who is responsible for my unhappiness, or is it ME??.

Forgive others and especially yourself. J

Life is Temporary.

-Dyra Sao 

sorry no time and no internet. i'm at someone's desk right now so i have to go quick. the big competition day where i will probably get eliminated is on the 1st of oct. it's a china national holiday that day so everyone and their moms and their moms moms will be watching. it's going to be a live quick 4-hour show. :) wish you guys can see it. i'll get a copy. i will be dancing and i will be doing a choreographed fight along with my taolu. if i get challenged then i'll have to do sanda. it's exhausting. for the last 2 nights, i got 3 hours sleep each do to preparation for my part. not everyone, just me. as you know, i always overdo the preparation, but when best to overdo it then now, being on t.v. with an expected over 400 million viewers, or did they say 100 million? uh... don't matter, i'd overdo it for 50 people. i hope every one is fione. i gave shenzhen meda a copy of some of the scwa vids. you people are known and might be broadcasted as tiffanie was on china t.v. hehe.  

dary, tell mom and dad that i'm doing fine and will probably get home on the 9th of oct.

hopefully i will find internet that will be able to use skype soon.

love ya

dy

fantabulous! i'm back in shenzhen meaning internet everyday. had a free day and it was crazy crazy shopping. for whom? for me hahaha. i bought a shit load of clothes and sooo cheap. the kewlest part is it fits me, not like american clothes. i actually wear a large or medium here. i need like xsmall in america and as for footlocker, forget it. i need to go there again. there's a mcdonglau here so i can't wait to go.

we watched our show air tonight during dinner. i thought it was okay. the event itself was great but the editing and camcorder work and everything was not well put together. at least i didn't like it. i asked one of the editors to give me the footage so i can clip that shit. like there's a part in the show where everyone gets an intro but either the camera men didn't catch the people faces or the editors didn't care to show people's faces. anyways they did a stupid job. stupids. well i had a 5 min interview on stage and it was shown straight no cuts. with the studders and stumbles and everything haha. oh and for the entire show, they chose to show the same 4-5 people in every clip, not diversifying the airtime. they show alot jack tu, phil sahagun, denny from autralia, zack from australia and like other foreigners. they don't show chinese competitors much, weird. china loves foreigners, now i know.

eric i dont know if i'll get a part, this thing might not do what they said, it's china, there's some stuff that's been said that's not been done so who  knows.

john i wouldn't want to take ur black title from you, but my teeth def looks whiter

yeah sammi i saw a huge chicken cross the road and it made me think of the joke 'why did the chicken cross the road?' i still don't know why he crossed the road and i think he didn't know either. chickens are really stupid.

manda hopefully i can get a clapper for ya. man, me and phil stumbled into a room where they were rehearsing for a beauty pageant show. fuck the women were gorgeous. super model style. later that night they wore bikinis but the kungfu stars weren't allowed to go :( i think they would guess that us being in shaolin for a wk, it wouldn't be a good idea to let us watch that show.

ngan fine i won't quit, i will just die

jb yo bro gotta come down to party when i get back

tommy i have nothing to prove man. i'm one of the oldest in this thing and i'm here just to..... hurt myself haha. but thanks anyways.

ely sup man heard the fleas haven't been around? is will taking up all my spaace?

ngoc i will try

mark thanks for going through all the trouble man

yeah rich ur outta the loop haha

felicia wow what a surprise. def lets meet up and be my shopping buddy!

ernie fo sho mang, i'll try. star wars? is this about ur porn idea again? lol

raffi hay bro just missed ur aim by a lil. talk to you some other time.

dy

update yo.

i'm in guzhang and have been fro the last 4 days. it's very uncouth town. no sitting toilets. bad food but spice is good. mountains all around. lake nearby. kids shitting on the corner and chickens running around. we, the top 9 chosen did a demo for the natives last night. half the town was there and people really love foreigners. philip was swarmed by both young guys and girls. i did the american thing by taking off my shirt at the end of my form and going bruce lee chuan on them but i think i scared them cuz when the judges shook my hand they were scared to look me in the eyes. haha suckers scared of me. dang i'm super black now... yup even more cuz we are in the sun practicing and photoshoots and shit all day. this morning was a demo too and it was a blast. litter all over the fucken place and people spit alot haha. i'm assimulating. man soo much has happened i don't even know what to say.

of course there is politics in this thing but i'm not going to discuss it really. the good news is me jack and phil are all in for sure for the top 18 finalists. in like a wk. people will be eliminated really fast. they informed us that there will be sanda. i just hope no one will kick my left knee. we hiked to water falls and interacted with natives of the miao race. the abbot gave us each a nice sword and oh sooo many pictures but i didn't bring a camera or a camcorder but i will document this somehow.

ngan i have more injuries but i'll be okay :) a part of me really wants to get eliminated so i can rest and go back to america really tho.

kathy the other competitors are pretty good. especially chinese ones. they've been training a long time and they are young still. i'm one of the oldest. 2 of them grew up in shaolin temple so it's at the same time fair and not fair if you catch my drift. it's kew tho.

yeah manda my engrish is horrible haha but wow my chinese is getting really good. people always say i have good pronounciation but maybe they are just being nice hehe. u study cuz i don't :)

sammi mos def i will make a vid. there is this song that the native miao girls sang to welcome us. it's so mezmerizing. i want to use it but they don't sell cds. darn

tommy i've shown people our fight and most of my vids. people love it. even the editors here really like it. and team usa is really strong. i'd say i'm the weakest to be honest, popularity-wise among the chinese people.

haha yeah brandon i had to wear it. man they make us wear some dumb shit. and there is only one size so i always look really small in it since i'm one of the shortest.

thank you jen.

awww dary i miss nausicaa so much. i gave a baby a toy clapper ( just a toy thing i wanted to bring back as a souvenir). i was just using it and this baby came up to me and pointed at it. the parents didn't want him to have it but i insisted. i took a pic with him and it made me miss nausicaa so much. i miss our whole family. everytime i talk about our family i get really emotional cuz i really miss everyone. i love you. kiss nausicaa for me.

tiffy hay baby. i just talked to you like 30 mins ago hehe. this is our free day cuz we are ready to fly back to shenzhen to do more promotional work. a lot of the shit we do is really stupid, but i actually like to do stupid stuff haha. muah!

hay mark yeah i gave jenny your number she said she will contact you when in shang hai. i think i will go there like oct 7 -10  around there. so will you be in shang hai or japan? hopefully see you soon :)

yeah eric, i'm not going to lose, i'm just gonna quit this thing cuz it's too much politics man. i'll tell you later. how's training?

hay don thanks for the support.

emily well there's more where that came from....SIKE!

thank you bboy and wongfeihong, there's actually a guy in the the competition named wong fei. so flexy he is.

G2G muah muah

dy